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I am dreadfully concerned over my lovely wife's health. She took a dreadful turn on Saturday and was as if she had the Borg decided to assimilate her and then changer their minds mid way through. She was a walking pillar of tension, pain and torment, her body it seemed to rebel against her. and I know how it will come into affect later because despite her size she is one of the most delicate flowers I have ever seen and well I have to protect her without being overbearing and well overprotective.

Life isn't a kind event

This weekend was lovely save for the fact I lost my reserve of patients and bless her heart Jo didn't with me when it came to going to York Minster. Pals of ours went on the walking tour with a chitterling old bat that rambled on more than she ought and I was more less cordial than I ought.

None-the-less Jo was in perfect form of patience and eased me some by taking me out of the Minster and letting me find air

I have been slow in my fanfics because I have dwindled into the lurker mode and my mind going a zillion miles an hour over plot bunnies and ideas and paintings and drawings and ideas and what not and well it’s on overloads so I took moments to simply fade and read rather than write.

As I said Life is a neither kind nor fair event and then I got to thinking should it be fair? I mean truly if it were we may not as a race like where it would be if it were. But alas I digress but then I have aptly named my journal so if you read you now it is incoherent babbling.

See this is why I refrain from updating because well I ramble..... A LOT

Call it the Willow-babble mode if you will I have it

I think I hope it that the job prospect will come more well accessible once I pass these facking GCSSE things those in the US think SAT on a subject segregated level one most have scores in the subjects i.e. maths / English / science if one wants to have a job above a server at some fast-food joint. For fracks sake I hold a few art degrees one might think I am qualified! And I was a pilot teacher but no England won’t hire me as an employee if I want something above the mediocrity of servitude.

Though if things progress as they are I might simply lower my standard of jobs get a job as some associate at Woolworth’s and what not, frack I might save a few £ on stuff I buy to make stuff i.e. my Jaffa uniform I am making for the cons. Though I much prefer to be an art teacher

I'd settle for one like my old job as a pilot teacher I truly enjoyed that job I loved teaching the kids yeah it was like being a substitute teacher but it was for one school and if I wasn't in a class room I was in the library or in administration I was productive and it wasn't mediocrity it was something worthy ...... gods I miss that more than I can say, still I do not regret the move

I didn't get it. I came in second. The person who got it was a women who had 7 years as a live interperter and 5 in a museum prior to that, bu tthey want to keep me on a call back list for acting in the live reenactment section of the museum for the summer but they said to keep my eyes open for notifications in the paper about such things, I impressed them, 3 peice feminzed suite and a 76 page thessus on the history of Hartlepool and the neoplonic war erea navy, but it wasn't enough. I even got them to laugh at my reenactment and partake in the story telling which calls for the audiance to answwer back a certain phrace and they didn't realize they were duing it until i finished it and sat back down. They acted me what would i do if my audiance didn't participate, and I said well people are joiners. Just today I had a board of 3 interviewers call back to me during the story on que. I guess 2nd isn't bad, but I so wanted that job

Studying for a massive exame on saturday that has me a bit worried. trying to figure out how on the green earth am I going to move all my stuff or even a bit of it to England

Feeling overwhelmed

no not bad
not good

just a WOW factor.

working hard at school and earning a reputation for a good teacher or at least I hope I am . gave lecterettes on the middle ages and was even garbed for it

thinking I need to find a job for this summer mummm could work for the corperate rat.. i mean Micky Mouse or universial .... i can fit into the costumes......

dreaming of july and gatecon and the wedding and all that wornderful bit

oh and decided to write little stories for Stargate

well that what's been going on

Liz

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